MIdst in my life

I love listening to my blog's cover soft music, they just somehow calm my feeling down when ever i was almost bursting out the ''scream'' in my head my mind. Ya, the exam is not easy at all for me. What could i do? i tried my best to study isn't it? I'm just not a science student. But still, somewhere in my mind, just telling me, no u could do better but where is your bigger effort? I'm just tired.
            Nothing make a change even i studied. Since the beginning. They really cut of my brave for a certain time. I was afraid to put much more effort as it doesn't make a change. But now, in my mind, even if i did really fail for my exam, i guess it would be okay for me. There are much more things important than just studies.
           
            While i was in the midst of my education, i worries more of my spiritual life. What if i die today? what did i do for my Lord?  i was confuse, i was stuck. I doesn't know what to do next. The only thing i know, is to finish reading my bible. Whenever i have a big question mark in my mind, even for now, the only thing i could know is - because u don't know my word. Ya i really doesn't know well of the Lord i trust in except Jesus did die for my sin. I guess i just have to study more of Him and his words. 


            So when the position of God is much more important than anything in my life, i wasn't afraid to lose anything e.g.studies and result. I'm more afraid of losing God. But God promised us in the bible, when we come to Him, he will never push us away, but just how much effort i give in to meet him?


 Conclusion? As you can see, for me, or even for you(whoever you are) , it was better to chase after God than chasing after anything else in this world. Not relationship, not studies, not achievement in your life or what ever you could do just bringing yourself up high upon people, but humble and looking for God for help in our sinful life, look for salvation.