who is controlling my life?
does my life bring anything to me?
where should i start to self-denial in Christ?
i starts to think how if my life just end like this? maybe someone would think that a girl in the age of 17 and half shouldn't think too much towards negative first. But it is really a good question leading me thinking over and over again on how do i live my life for God? or even did i ever started to live my life for God already..
Sigh.. this is really a problem for me! A big burden over me.. it is hard, tired, and even annoying when you are suppose easy to get what you want when you wish for it so so much but in the end, in your mind, God tells you're not suppose to have it..
God words is everything for Me if i really understand the meaning of having bible in the world :)
It is always so clear in my mind that i should obey God's law but the ignorance in my heart , mind were so strong!! arghh..
In this end of my stubbornness and the beginning of my pilgrim journey^^
i wants so much to put an end to my ignorance not following God's law..
ME!! will either be with my God father or Satan's control...
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