Today my family celebrated my birthday for me. It was quite early since my birthday was actually on 30 november. But this time it was really a surprise :)
I had always complained to my sister they can't bring out surprise for my birthday because i like surprise. They just not good at it haha. But they even skipped my birthday cake for last year. So sad. Fortunately this time they brought me up with a surprise celebration, because it was really too early and that's why it is totally unexpected to me.
My birthday cake is fruit cake! Compare to chocolate or other favour cake, i really prefer just fruit cake. Fruit cake is just simple and tasty. YUm yUM! Any kind of fruits is fine for me but i just don't like heavy flavour like chocolate. Not hate but just not so like.
I'm always glad God gave me a family. They ain't perfect for every single one of them, but they are the most irreplaceable one for me. Even this birthday were not on time, but i still enjoy a simple and happy birthday celebration. With family is enough for me. I love God and my family.
I love listening to my blog's cover soft music, they just somehow calm my feeling down when ever i was almost bursting out the ''scream'' in my head my mind. Ya, the exam is not easy at all for me. What could i do? i tried my best to study isn't it? I'm just not a science student. But still, somewhere in my mind, just telling me, no u could do better but where is your bigger effort? I'm just tired.
Nothing make a change even i studied. Since the beginning. They really cut of my brave for a certain time. I was afraid to put much more effort as it doesn't make a change. But now, in my mind, even if i did really fail for my exam, i guess it would be okay for me. There are much more things important than just studies.
While i was in the midst of my education, i worries more of my spiritual life. What if i die today? what did i do for my Lord? i was confuse, i was stuck. I doesn't know what to do next. The only thing i know, is to finish reading my bible. Whenever i have a big question mark in my mind, even for now, the only thing i could know is - because u don't know my word. Ya i really doesn't know well of the Lord i trust in except Jesus did die for my sin. I guess i just have to study more of Him and his words.
So when the position of God is much more important than anything in my life, i wasn't afraid to lose anything e.g.studies and result. I'm more afraid of losing God. But God promised us in the bible, when we come to Him, he will never push us away, but just how much effort i give in to meet him?
Conclusion? As you can see, for me, or even for you(whoever you are) , it was better to chase after God than chasing after anything else in this world. Not relationship, not studies, not achievement in your life or what ever you could do just bringing yourself up high upon people, but humble and looking for God for help in our sinful life, look for salvation.
I couldn't fix things right by my own. GOD! Be my Power please!
Had been troubled by so many things around me. Just hoping they won't crash me down, neither do they harm those who i care for. Our heart is just so weak isn't? Every time each problems troubled me, they just teach me how wretched i am and how merciful God is. Well my friends would think i was craping along, or questioning me why do i always seem to grab everything on my head? But they are just not under my choice! Can't you get it? It just simply because we are sinners before God. Once we realize this truth, no one just seems to run away from the truth.
Nothing! nothing on this world will truly satisfy you or thing you wish UNLESS you have salvation from Jesus Christ.
You might think of hiding yourself up doing what you like or enjoying it temporary, just lot's of the activities you could try, but trust me, God has his limits on us! Though God is long suffering, allowing us to have our life now, someday, just one day, all those who is disobeying him will be crash into the eternal hell. You want prove? The whole bible is the Truth.
This is what i learn at least, '' Though Man will Betray Man, But Jesus Christ Never Dump Me ALONE!''
My heart is weak, i know. And my mind isn't strong enough. What else do i need to wish for? I just want to know YOU more, to hold my Faith my Heart my Mind strong enough to bind them with your Words.
Even if they laugh, God you smile. Because it is the only wise choice in your eyes. To be obeying my Creator.
