Who am i to judge him/her? For i was once in the same darkness.
That feeling, the kind of life in darkness, i don't wish to go back. By seeing the light, the grace of God, i doesn't want to go back to darkness anymore. That blindness, self-center and proud, it gave me nothing, no satisfaction was enough for me, because they were all so temporary in this world. I may feel warm, being loved, even enjoyment and so called freedom. But if i was truly honest to myself, i felt loneliness deep down in my heart. Nothing fulfill the needs and satisfaction i want in my heart.
Seeing the light, hoping to be save by it from darkness, it is a need to cut off every sin i seen in myself. It is painful, it hurts. But being in the darkness, i craved to reach the light. I am craving to be free from this dreadful darkness. I really hate this world, this fake and dishonest world. People seems to be pretending and nice in outline yet killing each other in the inner side.
Now, the path i have chosen. It might seems to be hard in people's view, friends might even think why are you being such a person? I never regretted, not even single regret for choosing the same path as Jesus Christ, bearing up my cross daily. Physically, i might seems not enjoying the world, or even being controlled and hard to myself. Even so, you'll never know nor understand my happiness unless u choose the same path as me. Though the needs to care on every steps, guard our flesh, control our sin but great comfort is there from Jesus, a comfort which no one can steal it from me. My comfort now, is even better than the comfort world gave me.
Luke 9:23 - Then Jesus said to them all, '' If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me ''
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