My Saviour

No man seems to be perfect, even you found some good character around you, still, no one is perfect. Being a christian not just something to be bringing out from my mouth, but Christ follower. Just because i found no perfect man around me, i trust in Jesus Christ. Because He is the only perfect man, son of God, and the only one who can save you and me. Even i'm not perfect, with lots of weakness, still, he love me. Therefore we need to be the light of the world and salt of the world, for this temporary and spiritually fallen world. We can find no peace here, people dying around and man losing their own faith. Therefore i will never let go my faith, trusting on my Lord who gave up his life dying on the cross just for saving us, saving us from the judgement of hell because of our unforgiving sins.
Jesus i Love You. :)

Final Lap

Aja aja fighting! :D No matter how, this last round, just biting my teeth and run finish this last lap! No matter what, yeshh! Just try my best for this last exam :)
Haih..Even though everything doesn't go well, but so what? This is just part of my growing process isn't? I will fight for this last round, for not wasting my two years studies. I will get satisfying result for my ownself. A result where at least my hard work worth for! 
This is not the end of my life, but process! YES part of the growing process! heez.. =)

What's in my Consideration?

Those who cares for me, i know very well, i should try my best. But holding on fighting for something i really have no interest in, is really so hard. I tried, tried and tried, it never hits my target. Not even half of them. They are just not my interest, but still peoples around me could only give one advice ''try your best''


Such an easy sentence to be spoken out. The real meaning, i couldn't hit on them. Do you even understand the feeling of being a failure? Fail, of course they do have a hit on it sometimes. But being failure and never try on success, who can understand the bitterness. Who understand me?


STPM. Such a heavy load on me right now. I know, i shouldn't choose to do what i like only, but like what i do. Woahh, sounds so nice isn't? I couldn't do it either. The problem isn't trying your best or not anymore, but what can i do after fail? Because certainly i know so well, i will definitely not passing my exam. 


It's not blaming on my effort, but i have no intelligence like my friends to study science field. Maybe our brain instruction is just difference. Now, biggest problem to me, WHAT SHOULD I DO?


Money doesn't fly down from the sky for me, i wouldn't have enough finance to be waste on my studies when i am not suppose to be in some field which i couldn't handle at all isn't it? And it comes to my mind, should i just let go of it? 

Study Week

Well this will be my trials of stpm for this coming exam. It is a total busy week. Not enough rest? yea of course. The level of nervous is hitting the top part of my heart. Who knows will it ruins my health badly? But certainly i must at least hit certain target for this coming exam. 


It is really tired to always keep things right. But what to do?  It's my responsibility to study as a student. 
Let us try our BEST! Why not? :) 


While trying our best to do things right, it would even bring glory to God. We did not wasted our living life. 


It will never be bad for trying our best. Just for one week before exam! And i will use up all the time for studies. Maintaining it till the end of trials exam!  =)

最近的事

这一个礼拜好忙碌哦… 最糟糕的是，闹心的事儿也不忘了敲敲我心门，不停地打闹着我的思绪。好多好多麻烦，却不知能向谁诉说一切。我的心思，漂浮不停…自己也差点儿忘了我是谁。我的坏习惯吗？就是面对不了该面对的事儿，就麻醉自己，让自己沉淀于一切之外。可我知道，这样的我根本没把事情解决。搞不好，还弄巧反拙呢……
好好的想想，该成长的时候，就得学习变得成熟多点。或许思想也会有所不同，也许会更好也说不上。


总是扰乱我心绪的罪毁祸首，总是让我不知该如何抉择的事情，我不理了啦！至少让我平复心情面对我的考试先好吗？你们这些闹心的事儿呀，我会祈求祷告，让主为我做主的！

A Dream ( True Grace )

Lately, i was enjoying a novel ''Out of the Depths'' by John Newton. This version which i am reading right now it's a little different whereby people had helped to change it a little to better grammar and vocabulary suiting nowadays youngteens. :) 


I just wanted to share a little favourite part of it for me. At least it really inspire me a lots.
Hope all the readers find it interesting to you as well :)


His Dream of the Ring 


In my dream the scene was the harbor of Venice, where i had lately been. I though it was night, and I was standing my watch upon the dock.  As I was walking back and forth by myself, someone brought me a ring. I was explicitly charge to keep it carefully and assured that while I preserved that ring I would be happy and successful. If i lost or parted with it, I must expect nothing but trouble and misery.I accepted the present and the terms willingly, not doubting in the least that i would carefully preserve it. I was highly satisfied to have my happiness in my own keeping. 


         Then a second person came to me. Observing the ring on my finger, he began to ask question concerning it. I readily told him about its virtues. He expressed surprise at my weakness in expecting such effects from a ring. He reasoned with me for some time, and at last urged me to throw the ring away.


         At first I was shocked at the proposal, but his persuasions prevailed. I began to think and then doubt. At last I plucked it off my finger and dropped it over the ship's side into the water. At the same instant, a terrible fire burst out from a range of the mountain, a part of the Alps, which appeared at some distance behind the city of Venice. I saw the hills as distinctly as if awake, and they were all in flames.
     
        I perceived, too late, my foolishness. My tempter, with an air of insult, informed me that all the mercy of God in reserve for me was containing in that ring, which i willfully thrown away. I understood that i must now go with him to be burning mountains, and that all the flames I saw were kindled on my account. I trembled, and was in a great agony, but my dream continued. As i stood self condemned, without plea or hope, suddenly a third person, or the same who brought me the ring at first ( I am not certain which) , came to me and asked for the cause of my grief.

        I told him plainly, confessing that i had ruined myself willfully and deserved no pity. He blamed my  foolhardiness and asked if i would be wiser if I had my ring again. I could hardly answer for i thought it was gone beyond recovery. Indeed, I had no time to answer before i saw this unexpected friend go down under the water, just at the spot where i had dropped the ring. He soon returned, bringing it with him.
 
        The moment he came on board, the flames in the mountains were extinguished and mu seducer left me. Then was ''the prey taken from the hand of the mighty, and the lawful captive delivered'' ( Isaiah 49:24 ). My fear ended, and with joy and gratitude I approached my kind deliverer to receive my ring again. But he refused to return it and said to me, '' If you are to be entrusted with this ring again, you would very soon bring yourself into he same distress. You are not able to keep it, but I will preserve it for you. Whenever it is needful, I will produce it in your behalf.''


I awoke in a state of mind that is difficult to describe.


This story it reveals to our life as well. The original peace which sinful us had lost it with our God will be found again. And it is only through Jesus Christ's death for us. That why True Christian love our God and truly appreciate what Jesus Christ had done for us. And it did not end until we die, just like the third person who appeared in his dream, Jesus Christ preserve our life for us. Or else, we lose it to our own sin and persuade of demons. 

My Dream

The best treasure i had.


My dream is to share the best i had to all especially my love ones.




The best things i could share with all my love ones is my Saviour Jesus Christ.
He is my Best Treasure. Everything for me it's from God. My rest, my peace, He gave me all.




And Lord, i certainly will treat you as my Hidden Treasure and the Pearl. =)


>> Matthew 13 : 44-46